10,000 reasons to be cranky and stressed

At least that many. But why? One might think I shouldn’t be either, seeing as how my power came back after only two days, and most people I know are still out, and we have enough food and enough gas in one of our cars that we don’t really have to worry about anything, yet. The power came back on in RS’s school on Friday, so that will be all normal again — the other schools were only out for one day — and even though some of us were feeling quite sick on and off the other day, it seems to have passed (I think), so that’s good too, plus my house suffered no damage at all. So what’s my problem? Who knows. I definitely have survivor’s guilt; G and I both do, from the moment the power came back on just as we were packing up to leave. Sucks. Believe me, we’re not complaining that it’s on, we just don’t quite know what to do with the fact that it suddenly and bewilderingly came on when everyone else’s is still off. We’ve offered people to stay here but no one is so far. BFFR was about to but then her power came back too. So there’s that weird helpless feeling of not knowing why something good happened to you and not to other people who deserve it more and need it just as much, which is upsetting, especially when there’s so little you can do to help them. I’m also upset that my friend AW has no power and got sick, but she can’t come stay with us on account of her psychotic dog. Feh. And my Elder Sister is still being held prisoner by her job, though she did get to go home for Shabbos (to her cold dark house), and BFFD is in town for one day but I’m not going to get to see her or take her to the airport (on account of the gas shortage, see), and I’m mad and cranky and stressed and overwhelmed for any one of 10,000 reasons, but I don’t know why, not really. At least Babysitter Allison did get to close on her house and didn’t have to cancel her bridal shower, and I got to meet Ryan’s mother and sister, so there’s that. And per my son’s assessment, the house is “SOOO gorgeous.” Though it doesn’t have power yet either. I’m trying to ignore my baby, but I’m not succeeding, and now she’s sitting next to me demanding to watch videos on my phone. Remind me later to list her baby talk words, they’re really cute.